Free Write.. don’t worry about me

You have to move beyond this present place of heaviness. You feel stuck. Depression. Pain.  It’s not that one chooses to be here.. it’s a feeling that’s hard to shake.  Have you ever felt a dream merging into reality die? Then have you had someone close literally die?  Double whammy.  It hurts in a way

Rainy Days

Emotions pour from the clouds.. weighted and heavy. Each droplet containing a moment that couldn’t be held. No longer able to contain its composure.. It swelled. It filled. Traveling downward, speeds unknown. Traveling up was no longer an option until after impact. Maybe rays of hope from the sun would raise up what was splattered…

Just A Moment…

Me: A lot of things happen around us, huh? Daughter: They happen to you. I’m just usually with you. Me: You’re right. You’re right.   That conversation above: True story. An event that just sits heavy on my heart happened yesterday. Sitting in the median awaiting my turn to cross two lanes of traffic, a

Day 28 – Praise through Pain

It’s not easy and sometimes feels like a superhero feat to still praise and give thanks when you’re feeling the pain. It’s a pain that can’t be eased and only processed. A pain that no matter what any other person says nothing can provide true healing. Only God can be that healing. And if I’m

Step 1: Thanks

Now, let’s see if I can flip how I’ve been feeling which truly hasn’t been the greatest most whole and healthy. A good place to start is to give thanks. I’m grateful for life. There’ve been so many deaths that it has been a heavy dose to the heart, even as I accept that it occurs.

The End

Cleanse me of what it meant to me No longer do I desire to love or think on it Life has shown me Remove traces of it from my heart and mind Lock it in a capsule that will never open Even with time Replace it only with your power and word I bury it

I… want… maybe need… but desire and pray for..

I’ve had easier days I’ve had better days I’ve had days to where I didn’t feel drained emotionally and physically I’ve had days where my focus was clearer than it is today I’ve had days where I’ve felt rested and refreshed I’ve had days in which I felt loved and appreciated Those days have felt