Heavy yet prayerful

I remember feeling something was on the horizon and sharing it. Well, it wasn’t many days after that in which things shifted. It shifted in ways that I could not have predicted or imagined. I battled COVID and pneumonia. The virus almost claimed my life. I’m grateful having won that battle. There were many during

It’s me again, God

There’s nothing we can do without you. And it’s our heart’s desire to be used for your glory and to believe in your promises. We thank you for the ability to connect with you and partake of your grace and love. No, it hasn’t been easy. No, we aren’t immune to pain. No, we don’t

20:38

Each day contains a new adventure and a continued journey. Some paths remain present within your soul even after the moment has passed. They trigger laughter in the most random of places. They trigger tears and fears for years and years sparking questions of wonder and why and how. Life. Day after day. Sometimes it

Processing

Sun rises as I lay here. Dreams vacate my space for the first time in a long while.  Fog of exhaustion and unwelcomed thoughts of the past.  Slow eye roll into passionate prayer.  Seeking an end to what lingers in my heart and mind.  Sunny days will come in time. Trusting in the process. 

Heart: No Vacancy

The awareness of hearing a stranger that I’ve known for so long say I Adore You. Blindsided by the admission.  This is how I used to feel before the present pain, but not for the stranger. The previous love revealed that maybe he was a stranger too, which makes this all even stranger. As the

Journey to Rebuilding Me

It wasn’t by choice. It was a forced hand… a barrier that I wasn’t able to shift on my own.   Do I feel defeated? Yes.   Do I feel wounded? Yes.   Do I still love you? Tremendously.  Do I feel like so much could have been prevented? Yes.   I was told the

Venting, Reset

The holidays aren’t supposed to feel like this.  I repeat, the holidays should not feel like this.  It’s cold and uncomforting.  Unyielding to desires of wanting more and seeking more and working for more.  It’s starting to become a consistent feeling of lack… lack and a longer list of things failed at during the year.